JEZEBEL Lyrics

To think of my task is chilling. To know I was carefully building
the mask I was wearing for two years, swearing I'd tear it off.
I've sat in the dark explaining to myself that I'm straining too
hard for feelings I ought to find easily. Called myself Jezebel.
I don't believe.
Before I say that the vows we made weigh like a stone in my
heart. Family is family, don't let this tear us apart.
You lie there, an innocent baby. I feel like the thief who is
raiding your home, entering and breaking and taking in every
room. I know your feelings are tender and that inside you the
embers still glow. But I'm a shadow, I'm only a bed of blackened
coal. Call myself Jezebel for wanting to leave.
I'm not saying I'm replacing love for some other word to
describe the sacred tie that bound me to you. I'm just saying
we've mistaken one for thousands of words. And for that mistake,
I've caused you such pain that I damn that word. I've no more
ways to hide that I'm a desolate and empty, hollow place inside.
I'm not saying I'm replacing love for some other word to
describe the sacred tie that bound me to you. I'm not saying
love's a plaything. No, it's a powerful word, inspired by strong
desire to bind myself to you. How I wish that we never had tried
to be man and his wife, to weave our lives into a blindfold over
both our eyes.