It's Come To This Lyrics

i found my head uncrowned and all life's sweet nectar flowing down
the cracks and seams wasted on some petty little prayers
and i
reached up for despair but i was well below that cherished stage
all my mangled hopes all songs unsung

chorus:
fear i've wasted all my sun
fear i've wasted all my time
everything is faded
smiles are fabricated now
fear i've wasted all my sun
fear i've wasted all my time
held my eyes closed for too long

and i ran out through the streets in hopes that i might find it there
but all my buildings stared back at me tenantless and bare
and i
reached up for the sky, but it always seemed so far away
transcendent thoughts you gave lie atrophied and broken

(chorus)

and i sat when i should have stood; swallowed when i should have spit
but now i only recognize me in pictures taken long ago
and
all the changes simply haunt and never go away
a friend will tell when i hit hell, i may not feel the change

held my eyes closed for too long
held my eyes closed for too long

just before i go don't you offer any sweet advice because
where were all your shoulders when i needed them so long ago
and
now with legs weak and weary from this silly dance
with a suitcase full of memories, i pack my bags and slowly drift away